elizadanica.
|
|
Le seul vrai language au monde est un baiser.Follow @elizadanica |
Thursday, January 3, 2013 @ 5:52 PM
2 0 1 3 Its the kickoff to a new year and I'm already feeling very auspicious about it, but that's perhaps due to my shallow belief in Chinese horoscopes. I know the year of the snake hasn't come up yet but its just right around the corner. I'm not even Chinese but it must be because of all the feng shui my mom has been progressively doing in her life. In all seriousness, I really need to clear my head. I haven't been able to establish some defined goals for this year. Over the break, I decided to give my head a break and stop planning things and to ultimately start thinking lightly on subjects. Sad to say, this wasn't the best decision I made but it was a good rest for my overworked mind. With school coming up in a bit, more thoughts are filling my mind and its giving me quite a headache. I've made some goals in my head and I've already started living it out but I don't feel it to be solid until I write/type it out. Let's get started on some goals. In an academic sense, I want to maintain the As I have in statistics and music. I want to strive for the very best in the rest of my organic chemistry course. Last term, I must admit I made brazen decisions that enhanced my social life but lessened my success in the class. At this rate, I think an A is far from possible but I will still settle for that B. I feel as if As are possible in my research methods class as well as sensation and perception 2 and abnormal psychology. The winter term doesn't look to bad but I imagine to be struggling more than fall but I know it will be worth the struggle because I will be able to reap my rewards. I feel as if academics is the biggest part of my life right now. This is almost do or die for medicine. On the topic of medicine, here's my plan. After getting my organic chemistry mark, I'll take a good look at the rest of my marks and see how much I want to push my luck. I'll take a good look at the MSAR that's been lying around the house neglected and I'll also take a thorough look at the schools in the Caribbean. After that, I will decide if I still want to continue on this path. Knowing myself, I'll be searching for some divine intervention to save me from my hopelessness. Then, I'll take the MCAT and if my marks are competitive enough, I'll persevere on this path. If not, I'm quite despaired to admit that I have already formulated a back up plan (one that I was not allowed to make but made because I have unmistakable doubts in myself. I would go into nursing and home that some credits would transfer over to lessen the years. Then I'd use the perks at William Osler to get 20 percent off my tuition at Walden U to take a masters in leadership. Then I'll be a clinical care leader or another type of leader. Since academics and career are so beautifully intertwined, my short term career goal (since the long term one was already defined) is to grow and gain helpful experience with this one. I must divulge that I feel immensely accomplished scoring a job like the one I have now. All thanks to everyone supporting me. I made the over $20/hr while at the fresh ripe age of 20. I have a job that many people would be satisfied with making a living off of and I am so proud of myself for raising the bar. With this position, I want to establish connections with people in the health care industry to develop a positive imprint and outlook on the health of humanity. Working in the emergency department will probably leave me jaded. To be honest, I feel as if I've developed an off switch to emotion because I find myself to be less empathetic to people involved in petty non-life-threatening situations. So this leads me to my goals for my attitude, I want to revert back to the figurative on switch. I feel as if I don't vocalize my opinion enough and that I don't emanate enough varying emotion. I shall be sweeter to everyone but I won't be afraid to burn the bridges that I feel are a negative influence. I want to retain the positive one I have. I also want to develop a better ability to small talk. Personally, I'm not a big fan but when it comes to networking and such, it certainly does serve as an asset. In a financial sense, I want to become debt free in 2013. I want to pay off the rest of Europe which is a shy more than $2500 and I want to do that all before spring rolls around. I also want to get rid of the remaining balance on my mastercard. For such a young individual, I'm quite expensive. By the end of the summer, I want to have saved at least $2000 for Australia in the winter. So carry on into my resolutions of pleasure, I enjoy traveling. In December, I plan on going to Australia to visit the best and spend the holidays down under. Its a done deal and nothing will stop me. If my budget extends and time permits, then I'll take a trip to Singapore, Hong Kong and Philippines with the family. Above anything, I'm working towards Australia… With that being said, I cannot be travelling to Australia with an untoned body, so I want to continue this fitness regimen at Good Life. I want to become a bit more committed and force myself to go a minimum of once a week. I'm not so self-conscious but I like going to the gym to release some hormones, stress and get things figured out. The gym is one of the few places I can indulge in my thoughts and not feel so guilty for wasting time. I feel as if its almost efficient to daydream there because you workout your body almost mindlessly. On an artistic level, I want to get back into something art-related. Perhaps, go to some random drop-in dance classes every now and then or start singing again (ok, the singing was a joke). I don't think I have the time to excel in too many things but if passion and motivation happen to drive up then why not? Now, I can't be living life so luxuriously without giving back to the community. I want to be involved in Epilepsy Toronto's Buskerfest once again this year. Although, this year I want to hold a position of power which means I plan on getting hired as a Captain so I can the influence high school kids. If my schedule permits, I also want to take part in frosh as a leader once again. If I'm volunteering, I want positions of authority. It is free labour so why not do the things I like to do? Which is to sit in my throne and reign over. I really want to get more involved in school but I think I might have too much on my plate to handle. Last year, I was in the process of starting an organization with friends but it wasn't able to follow through due to the lack of time for preparation and the low priority it served on my scale. But since we've let it incubate and grow, I'm going to renounce my position as President and demote myself to VP because I know I wont have enough time to commit. After all this contemplating and writing, I think I've figured most things out. I typed out a lot of things and now I'm wondering what about my romantic life and family? For the most part, I still want to continue to be a stellar example for the younger ages. I want to evade any disappointment that I could possibly bring my parents. There's a lot going on with the list above, so with the love life, I don't think I can promise any commitment. If I think I can handle it, then I don't mind some experimenting but let's keep it lighthearted. Gonna keep the infatuation/affection/love on the back burner until I accomplish more in my career. Damn, this was one hell of an entry but it was definitely needed to clear the head. Cheers to the New Year! Now, I have to go back to some more serious journal entries for my music assignment. For what its worth, I'm in love with you, life. Saturday, December 1, 2012 @ 5:24 PM
ipso facto To deny myself of letting it think it could happen would be crime against my happiness. Its that misleading hope which sometimes keeps things alive but even alive there is no life, no substance and character to the circumstance. However, that is made solely by choice but the chemistry amidst each force is innate and if none is present, so shall be none. Ipso facto, growing better not bitter is essential. I have acquiesced in the situations and intend on becoming superlative to the adversaries, so if and whenever they see me walk, they'll see grace and humility; and feel spite only for themselves. I've had too much meds for one day. Not feeling well and causing me to think strangely. Monday, November 12, 2012 @ 8:44 AM
keep the cake away I've been having my cake and eating it too literally and figuratively. Wednesday, November 7, 2012 @ 7:58 PM
On y est presque. I'm definitely missing the French language in my life but I do have minimal regrets of not continuing it this year because of the disagreeable experience I had last year. I'm down to one job and absolutely no volunteering. I've been focused on school and pleased to say that I'm doing very well. I recently got an A+ on my statistics midterm. I'm actually back on here to release my frustrations. You know what really grinds my gears? Presumptuous people that like to underestimate me in my work life and love life. Here's a wake up call, you don't know who I am so I don't know where you're fetching all your ratchet facts from. Do not call me a princess, I work for everything I have. My parents don't simply hand me over everything I ask for. I may look like a spoiled brat at times, but you have been fooled. I'm just fortunate enough to have my parents pay for my tuition but that's all that's coming out of their pockets right now. That, "you're mom is a nurse" bull crap isn't an excuse to not work. I'm entirely independent and I manage my own finances. Another instance is when you tell me to not develop feelings for you. Open your eyes, you still don't know me, I don't think you can dictate how I'm supposed to feel. First of all, I know what I get myself into because unlike most people I find the time to think before I act. Also, I'm pretty sure it was stated prior to this commencement of romance that it wasn't serious. I'm not stupid, and I'd hate for you to think I'm incompetent. Perhaps I should call you incompetent because you have no knowledge of what you've gotten yourself into. The amount of attraction is skewed when its divided between the both of us. I personally think you like me more. There was no initial attraction for me, I just became accustomed. I might deserve all this presumptuous crap though because of the front I put on. I'm actually struggling on the inside, I don't want people to know how hard I actually work. I find it more satisfying to make it seem easy. But to be honest, every waking minute I spend thinking about school. Wherever I go, I bring homework! I even attempt to do homework on my break. There's always something to be done. While the world is sleeping, I'm off slaying my wretched homework, understanding new concepts that your indifferent mind will never be able to comprehend. I'm just feeling spiteful today, hopefully this will phase soon. I'm convinced its because of the misalignment of normal sleep-wake times and my circadian rhythm thus leading to insufficient sleep. Whatever, I don't have anything to lose. I'm still doing me. What about you? Thursday, October 11, 2012 @ 11:21 AM
mindless blogging, spare yourself and don't read All my courses are so demanding, I had to drop my "bird course" because it was ridculously demanding. Sure, the content was simple but the amount of work I have to put into it is so time-consuming. I should be focusing on organic chemistry and statistics more than anything. I really want to put a lot of effort into those courses. I should even focus on music since they're all full year courses. Why am I wasting time blogging? This is all mindless for me. Its literally my brainwaves being translated onto this keyboard onto this screen. Not to mention, I do have a stats test today but that doesn't really matter because I do have a cheat sheet. What is wrong with me? I'm frustrated with school. I just want to sleep. How is it possible to sleep so little without feeling so tired? Someone please share your secrets with me. Enlighten me. I'm just dying to know. While you're at it, how do you become a genius overnight? I've already deprived myself from downloading music not related to my music course so I could stay on track. Why is this happening? This isn't healthy. I hope this stupid blog saves me from insanity. I don't want to give up just yet. Friday, September 21, 2012 @ 8:31 AM
R,U,S -Routine, Urgent, Stat This new job has me going loco. Its so demanding and my meaning of "normalcy" has been redefined. I'm not loving it yet. Everyday is a new learning experience so let's go. Friday, September 14, 2012 @ 8:54 AM
A Late Summer 2012 Recap After coming back to Canada, my summer has been a whirlwind of adventures never ending. I've only started school and I already feel as if I'm behind school I can't even fathom how much work I need to do for the following months. Just before going to Europe, I went to Epilepsy Toronto's Buskerfest training session and as an activity they asked, "If you were a superhero, what super power would you want?" Initially, I would want to teleport but for some reason I found myself saying "controlling time" and the guy said to me, "you must be a student". Well of course, I am and there's no denying. I wish I had more time to do things, everything is just coming back at me. Now, let's go through Europe. I went to 3 countries: Italy, Greece, and Turkey; and 7 cities: Rome, Naples, Mykonos, Santorini, Athens, Istanbul, Kusadasi. Here is a quick recap of my top 3 favourite cities:
Some more pictures from Greece. At the wishing wall found at the House of the Virgin Mary
Over the summer it got to the point where I was so stressed. I was handling 4 jobs and 4 volunteer positions. That is not an over-exaggeration. The four volunteer positions included Buskerfest, Dragon Week, the hospital, and the club at school. The four jobs included the lingerie store, the airport position, network marketing, and the hospital.
Volunteering over the summer has been life-changing. My viewpoint on my life has definitely changed. At Buskerfest we raised funds for Epilepsy Toronto. It wasn't one of the best experiences because it had me constantly looking at the clock and counting down the hours. However, that was my fault because I did do a double shift for the day. It was awfully redundant but it wasn't bad, it was fulfilling. I've been volunteering at the hospital for the longest time, not much has changed, just the same old routine. The club at school still needs its approval! I've been waiting/stalling for months. I think it took me three months to finally get this application right. I'll probably blog about it when it gets approved.
DRAGON WEEK 2012!! It gets its own paragraph. Dragon Week was one of the most life changing experiences for me. It changed my perception of school. I am not afraid to say that I am in love with York University and Bethune College! I am so in love with the dragon spirit instilled in me. Basically, I didn't have the chance to attend my own frosh week so I thought I should become a leader to see what the buzz was all about. I can't get over how much MORE I love my school. We created a family, and I felt like I was a role model and I was inspired by the first years and fellow leaders. I do not regret losing my voice or getting slightly sick. The whole experience was extraordinary. I'll cheer over and over again if its for my school. Bethune kicks ASS! Once a dragon, always a dragon.
I remember just 5 months ago we made an application to be a frosh leader. Personally, I think its incredibly embarrassing but here it is:
Here's the deal, I'm down to two volunteer positions and two jobs and school. I'm happy with my life. I'm probably going to go AWOL on everybody but that's because I'm living. I'm so happy.
|