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Thursday, January 3, 2013 @ 5:52 PM
2 0 1 3 Its the kickoff to a new year and I'm already feeling very auspicious about it, but that's perhaps due to my shallow belief in Chinese horoscopes. I know the year of the snake hasn't come up yet but its just right around the corner. I'm not even Chinese but it must be because of all the feng shui my mom has been progressively doing in her life. In all seriousness, I really need to clear my head. I haven't been able to establish some defined goals for this year. Over the break, I decided to give my head a break and stop planning things and to ultimately start thinking lightly on subjects. Sad to say, this wasn't the best decision I made but it was a good rest for my overworked mind. With school coming up in a bit, more thoughts are filling my mind and its giving me quite a headache. I've made some goals in my head and I've already started living it out but I don't feel it to be solid until I write/type it out. Let's get started on some goals. In an academic sense, I want to maintain the As I have in statistics and music. I want to strive for the very best in the rest of my organic chemistry course. Last term, I must admit I made brazen decisions that enhanced my social life but lessened my success in the class. At this rate, I think an A is far from possible but I will still settle for that B. I feel as if As are possible in my research methods class as well as sensation and perception 2 and abnormal psychology. The winter term doesn't look to bad but I imagine to be struggling more than fall but I know it will be worth the struggle because I will be able to reap my rewards. I feel as if academics is the biggest part of my life right now. This is almost do or die for medicine. On the topic of medicine, here's my plan. After getting my organic chemistry mark, I'll take a good look at the rest of my marks and see how much I want to push my luck. I'll take a good look at the MSAR that's been lying around the house neglected and I'll also take a thorough look at the schools in the Caribbean. After that, I will decide if I still want to continue on this path. Knowing myself, I'll be searching for some divine intervention to save me from my hopelessness. Then, I'll take the MCAT and if my marks are competitive enough, I'll persevere on this path. If not, I'm quite despaired to admit that I have already formulated a back up plan (one that I was not allowed to make but made because I have unmistakable doubts in myself. I would go into nursing and home that some credits would transfer over to lessen the years. Then I'd use the perks at William Osler to get 20 percent off my tuition at Walden U to take a masters in leadership. Then I'll be a clinical care leader or another type of leader. Since academics and career are so beautifully intertwined, my short term career goal (since the long term one was already defined) is to grow and gain helpful experience with this one. I must divulge that I feel immensely accomplished scoring a job like the one I have now. All thanks to everyone supporting me. I made the over $20/hr while at the fresh ripe age of 20. I have a job that many people would be satisfied with making a living off of and I am so proud of myself for raising the bar. With this position, I want to establish connections with people in the health care industry to develop a positive imprint and outlook on the health of humanity. Working in the emergency department will probably leave me jaded. To be honest, I feel as if I've developed an off switch to emotion because I find myself to be less empathetic to people involved in petty non-life-threatening situations. So this leads me to my goals for my attitude, I want to revert back to the figurative on switch. I feel as if I don't vocalize my opinion enough and that I don't emanate enough varying emotion. I shall be sweeter to everyone but I won't be afraid to burn the bridges that I feel are a negative influence. I want to retain the positive one I have. I also want to develop a better ability to small talk. Personally, I'm not a big fan but when it comes to networking and such, it certainly does serve as an asset. In a financial sense, I want to become debt free in 2013. I want to pay off the rest of Europe which is a shy more than $2500 and I want to do that all before spring rolls around. I also want to get rid of the remaining balance on my mastercard. For such a young individual, I'm quite expensive. By the end of the summer, I want to have saved at least $2000 for Australia in the winter. So carry on into my resolutions of pleasure, I enjoy traveling. In December, I plan on going to Australia to visit the best and spend the holidays down under. Its a done deal and nothing will stop me. If my budget extends and time permits, then I'll take a trip to Singapore, Hong Kong and Philippines with the family. Above anything, I'm working towards Australia… With that being said, I cannot be travelling to Australia with an untoned body, so I want to continue this fitness regimen at Good Life. I want to become a bit more committed and force myself to go a minimum of once a week. I'm not so self-conscious but I like going to the gym to release some hormones, stress and get things figured out. The gym is one of the few places I can indulge in my thoughts and not feel so guilty for wasting time. I feel as if its almost efficient to daydream there because you workout your body almost mindlessly. On an artistic level, I want to get back into something art-related. Perhaps, go to some random drop-in dance classes every now and then or start singing again (ok, the singing was a joke). I don't think I have the time to excel in too many things but if passion and motivation happen to drive up then why not? Now, I can't be living life so luxuriously without giving back to the community. I want to be involved in Epilepsy Toronto's Buskerfest once again this year. Although, this year I want to hold a position of power which means I plan on getting hired as a Captain so I can the influence high school kids. If my schedule permits, I also want to take part in frosh as a leader once again. If I'm volunteering, I want positions of authority. It is free labour so why not do the things I like to do? Which is to sit in my throne and reign over. I really want to get more involved in school but I think I might have too much on my plate to handle. Last year, I was in the process of starting an organization with friends but it wasn't able to follow through due to the lack of time for preparation and the low priority it served on my scale. But since we've let it incubate and grow, I'm going to renounce my position as President and demote myself to VP because I know I wont have enough time to commit. After all this contemplating and writing, I think I've figured most things out. I typed out a lot of things and now I'm wondering what about my romantic life and family? For the most part, I still want to continue to be a stellar example for the younger ages. I want to evade any disappointment that I could possibly bring my parents. There's a lot going on with the list above, so with the love life, I don't think I can promise any commitment. If I think I can handle it, then I don't mind some experimenting but let's keep it lighthearted. Gonna keep the infatuation/affection/love on the back burner until I accomplish more in my career. Damn, this was one hell of an entry but it was definitely needed to clear the head. Cheers to the New Year! Now, I have to go back to some more serious journal entries for my music assignment. For what its worth, I'm in love with you, life. |
I'm a breathing complacent narcissist and its almost pretentious to say that I'm also a jaded student. Ergo, I've learned that self-indulgence is detrimental. My confidence is so extensive that I might just be influential enough to change you. I believe in dream chasing and opportunity seizing. Love is all you need. As for this blog, its just for my free time. `2012